I’m going to be very vulnerable here.
I am terrified to be labeled a “bible beater.” This fear started when I was young, like many fears do. I allowed this irrational fear to direct many of my choices. Who my friends were, who I was seen with, and who I would and would not date were all dictated by my fears. My fear even affected big decisions. For instance, I spent years dreaming of attending Baylor University, but I decided to enroll at Texas Christian University because Baylor’s reputation was more heavily laden with Christian culture than TCU.
Looking back, I realize at some point I became obsessed with appearing however I felt I should for whoever I was around at the time. I desperately wanted to be assoicated with Christianity and Christian principles, as long as I didn’t have to sacrifice being liked.
I’m no longer concerned with being liked in the way I used to be. I am very open with my faith, and I am proud to tell others about my faith, whoever they are. My concern now lies in being grouped in with the Christians who give Jesus a bad name by protesting Planned Parenthood clinics, screaming gay-hate, and spewing all kinds of venom about following out dated religious doctrine that would make Jesus himself cringe.
Why the heck am I telling you this? When I started blogging, I was doing product reviews for Influenster. Although I still plan on writing a blog that includes product reviews, book reviews, and parenting advice, primarily my posts will be more Jesus-centered. I find product reviews to be tedious and boring to write, but on occasion I don’t mind them.
Last summer I wrote a post that included blogging advice and a posting schedule here. I won’t be following that anymore. During my 6 months away from blogging I took time to focus on determining a direction for my blog, and God just kept speaking to me that I need to give Him everything, which includes my blog. It’s His anyway, not mine.
I considered starting over with a new blog, but I have some awesome readers, and I don’t want to lose them. My goal here isto give insight, encouragement, strength, and support with what I write.
Love you all!!
What are you fearful of? In what ways has this affected your life?